I always felt like I needed permission in my life- permission to be myself, to be loved, to be happy.
Because I had this craving for permission- which stems from me believing that I’m not good enough as I am, mixed with the fear of letting others down, hurting their feelings, or offending them in some way- I didn’t try to do anything outside of what I was supposed to do.
I followed the rules. I changed who I was deep down in order to fit what other people accepted– what other people gave me PERMISSION to be.
I followed the rules by getting good grades, going to college, being quiet and in the background all the time… getting married young (21) and having a baby shortly after (22).
I was (and still am) in love with my husband and my daughter, but holy crap did I feel lost.
I remember the moment I knew I needed to fix this: I was sitting on my couch in my living room, staring blankly into the room as I was breastfeeding my daughter. I looked down at her cute little face and it hit me like a ton of bricks: This beautiful girl is going to grow up needing permission for every freaking thing she does if I don’t show her how to be powerful.
Long story short: I started doing everything I could to change the way I thought about myself. Self-help books, courses, you name it. I even started my business as a result (best decision ever btw). I soaked in as much as possible about changing how you think, and how that affects your life on an insanely powerful level. I’ve done things in the last few months that a year ago weren’t even on my radar as remotely possible for “someone like me.”
Because of the mindset work I’ve done, I am free. I definitely still have days where I feel bad about myself, or like I just want someone to tell me everything’s okay so I can actually believe it in that moment…. but I know deep down that there is no one on this planet who can tell me no to my dreams. I am enough. I am powerful beyond what I can even imagine.
This is why I do what I do. Somewhere along the line, I realized that I don’t just want this for my daughter. I want this for every woman who has ever felt like she wasn’t enough. Every woman who wants to do something amazing but feels like without permission every step of the way she just can’t. Every woman who wants more for themselves and more for their own daughters but is paralyzed by preconceived notions of what’s okay.
I do what I do to empower as many women and girls as possible to be themselves and to realize that they have the power to make a HUGE impact– and the power to go out there and do it right now. I’m doing this to show women that they don’t need permission, they don’t need to let fear win… that they are enough.
It’s my mission to help change the way we think about our own power, confidence, and potential.
It’s my mission to share the most important message we can possibly hear- but so many people miss.
It’s my mission to start a freaking movement.
And you better believe I’m going to do whatever it takes.